#TGIF: Change

I know I have been really bad at keeping up with weekly writing and it's all on me. I've committed on posting every Friday, but lately it has been challenging to keep up with it. So I am gonna cheat a little here by posting a TGIF post on a Sunday. It felt like the right thing to do instead of waiting for the next Friday.

I am going through a lot of changes in life currently and more changes to come that I can already anticipate. I will tell more about all of them but for now I will share one thing.

Some of you may already know what I do but essentially I am in Account managing/brand consulting. Since I joined the company, I have been managing the same brand, the same client for over 2 years. It wasn’t easy at first but after 2 years? I knew it like the back of my hand. I had real good relationship with the people I worked with for the brand. The client too. We were in sync.

One person can say something, and I knew it they meant immediately. I know where things start and where they end. We've had multiple wins together that honestly one of the highlights of my career. I was really happy with how things were going, until the rug was pulled out from under me.

I was promoted (Alhamdulillah, really) and was moved into a team where I am more needed. Not into a stable team, but into the team that is still becoming. Before moving, everyone who knew I will make the move wishes me “good luck” because the team is very much known for chaos.

But there are two things you need to know about me though, and they are;

1. I like to prove people wrong
2. I would not believe hearsay, until I experience it myself - be it with people or situations/experiences

As I've become more senior in my role and the company, I know there are a certain expectations in place. I too, have expectations for myself. And I've said this before, that I am my biggest critique. So yes, I was a little hard on myself these past 2 weeks. I wanted to know things fast, gets frustrated when I can't contribute, when it was really only my second day into the new team & learning new brand.

What exactly did I expect?

I am not going to lie, I did feel the chaos and it was not just because I was new, but the situation has always been a little chaotic. The fire-fighting and problem solving are constant. In the last 2 weeks, I felt like all of my brain juices were squeezed dry every day that when I leave the office, I can only think of going to bed and rest. Because I know, I have to do this all over again tomorrow.

It put me in such a slump, it was hard to keep my social life going too. I didn't have the energy to reply to messages, let alone brain storm a blog post. I am just praying that things will stabilize soon, so I can be here more often and be creative again. But you'll know how it goes. If you see me back here next Friday, that means I had time and brain capacity to write. And maybe, just maybe - I am alright after all.