Monday, December 31, 2018


This year, I will be 21 and I hope for nothing else, but to be a responsible adult, for my own good. I want to be an independent woman and not to depend on others as much. I want myself to grow more mature mentally. By appearance, I already look older than my age πŸ˜… To love myself more and appreciate the people around me.

A paragraph I wrote a year ago became a curse to me all year long. 'I want to grow mature mentally' little did I know 2018 will be the year that my mental strength is extremely tested. In my last entry, I have done a recap on how this year has been for me. Alhamdulillah I survived until the very last day of 2018 despite the challenges.

To be honest guys, I did not do great for this year. I did not achieve most of my resolutions. Probably all, who am I kidding? I am not proud of it but I did struggle my way through it. One thing for sure, I do think that I did pretty good on being responsible and I am a lot more mature mentally. As for the rest of the resolutions;

- I did start cooking. I live away from parents for awhile so I had to cook meals myself but simple dishes though. You didn't expect me to cook Beriyani, did you? πŸ˜† I helped Mum cook a heck lot because of her health condition so I pick up a lot of skills/knowledge from that as well.

- No sign of driving license yet. I know...

- I did pretty good in taking care of myself. I would give myself credit on that because I am a lazy person when it comes to skincare. But this year I took care of my skin and majority of the time my skin behaved so well. Except for that time of the month or when I am really stressed out. One or two pimples would show up. For body, I love how it is now. I have nothing to complain but mental health... not so much. I will do better next year.

- This one is the biggest disappointment LOL. I only managed to watch like.....10 lectures? I have no reason for that because I don't want to give lame excuses for why I can't do it. Excuses are for losers. I own up to my laziness. Forgive me God.

- I started reading again! However I only finished one book. The rest are still ongoing. There are like 4 ongoing books huhu it is so hard to find time!


After that I go through this year, I am nervous and scared of how 2019 will turn out to be. But deep inside, a part of me is screaming with excitement. I pray that however next year will be, I hope I am strong to face everything. With final semester and internship coming, I know that I will for sure be under a lot of pressure. I just need to be mentally ready and prepared for that.

Since what I said for this year came true and became a 'curse', therefore I hope 2019 brings happiness, success, and love. A lot lot of love. For myself, family and friends. Eternal, unconditional, greatest, purest of love. I also pray for Him to bless me with His love and blessings always. To protect me and the people I care for from harm and danger, from sickness and sadness.

I am very grateful for what 2018 has taught me. The experiences and the lessons. The new people in my life and the ones who left. I appreciate all of it.

Happy New Year, guys. Have a great one πŸŽ‰πŸ’›

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