Friday, July 12, 2019

FAQ - Why are you still single?

“Why don’t you have a boyfriend yet?”

I get this questions a lot. Like…… a heck lot. As if it’s really weird to be 22 and single. I have my reasons and I will break it down to you in this entry. Every time people ask me this question I would just brush it off with

“Tak laku la *laughs*” or 

“Tak jumpa yang decent lagi” or just a simple 

“Tak nak kawin”

When the truth is I could say now, I didn’t think I was ready. I have been going solo every since I left school. Quick math; I am now 22 so that means I have been single four to five years. I can’t do math, lets face it. What’s important is that; five years is a long time.

Some asked me if I still can’t move on from my past relationship. To be honest, that was the case for the first two years. I took quite some time to let myself be alone, I don’t want to quickly jump into another relationship just to get over someone. That is just evil of me to do such abuse to other people. I allowed myself to be sad, I gave time to myself to heal, basically. As cliche as that sounds.

However, for the rest of the years, I knew I wasn’t ready for a relationship. I promised myself that my next relationship will be the one I marry. Therefore, at the age of merely 20, I was sure I won’t be meeting ‘the one’ just yet. I directed my focus to something even more important at that time. I needed to get that degree. And for someone like me, I prioritize my studies so much and I wouldn’t let anything get in the way.

In another way to put it, I did not have time for a relationship. Three years of just focusing on studies, I knew I could not add more things to give attention to. Let alone another living soul who’s heart I have to take care of. I don’t think so. I hardly can keep conversation with friends, I knew I couldn’t keep a romantic relationship together. Plus I also suck at it anyway, but that’s another story for another day.

Now that I am done with degree (I have not officially say this but yes!!! I am done!), I am going to another phase of life; real adulthood. I am honestly excited to get on this take, I don’t know what the future has in store for me and I can safely say, I am ready now to get to know people that may or may not blossom into a healthy, wholesome relationship and hopefully I don't swerve anybody because apparently I am really good at that. Oopss. 

Did I just declared myself as available to date? I might just did.

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