#TGIF: The mysteries of life

I thought I hit my peak at 18 for reasons so trivial and unimportant, now that I think about it. I have always excelled my papers, I figured the path I wanted to pursue, so I thought I had my life planned out. Silly how I thought I was so set and knew the trajectory of my life that young. But suddenly life threw a curveball, I had to restart, refigure life all over again. 

Then, I thought people in general peak at 25. Aren’t we supposed to graduate and choose the career path we want to go in, find the love of our lives and start a family? I waited for my time to come, and the clock continued ticking, only to soon realize my life does not fit that timeline. What am I supposed to do now? Have I figured everything wrong? Nothing was going right, at least not like how I wanted it to be.

For a few years my spirit, deep down dampen. I was anxious, and scared that I will spend my life just settling. For a degree I did not account for, job I didn't plan for, a life path so far off my plans. I did not see how I could grow out of the life I thought was a ‘failure’. It was hard. With everyone reminding me who I was ‘supposed to be’. 

It was not until I realized I am more than the person I boxed myself into. I have potential for anything and everything. Only if I allow myself to explore, to learn and to try. I failed once, and my life did not end there. What’s worst could happen? Something not working out is not a failure, it’s growth. It’s prove that you have tried and you have lived.

It's the mysteries of live that makes live exciting. Same goes to human connections. You know how people say you have not met everyone that you’ll love. How true is that? Never in my life I thought I could find a deep friendship connection with other people outside of my 6 main girl friends, but I did nonetheless. They all serve different purposes in my life. At times I found myself mapping out the people in my life — what lessons and purpose does this person bring to my life? It’s important for me to ensure I don’t get too carried away or overly obsessing over a connection, or expecting more out of it. Even if it’s platonic. Especially if it’s platonic.

The mysteries of life is the best part of living, that my life and yours are still unfolding, unraveling day by day. Don’t give up in finding your purpose. It may be so far off your plans, or your dreams. But you need to have a deep realization that you are exactly where you need to be. Nowhere else. Here, reading this entry too. Your life if not stagnant, it has not peaked like you thought you may have past it. Only so if you see it that way, if you have settled and given up trying. As long as you keep pushing through the boundaries, challenging yourself, your life will have so much to offer you in return.

p/s: Happy salt air and the rust on your door to those celebrating!