Degree in Biology 101

Assalamualaikum & hi everyone!

This will be another boring entry but I hope it will be helpful for some people out there. I made a post on Uitm Dengkil awhile back and it got over 500+ views/reads. I know sharing my experiences might be helpful for my juniors on getting themselves ready for degree!

I was enrolled for Bachelor of Science (Hons.) Biology in Uitm in 2016. It was right after I ended my foundation earlier on the same year. Truth to be told, it was not my first choice in UPU. I know a lot of you did not choose this course as your first too. How many of you wanted to be a doctor instead? Or dentist? Pharmacist? Probably more than half of you. It was most of us too...

Long story short, God has written this fate for me, I ended up taking this course for my degree. I did not regret it though because I loved Science especially Biology and I will always do. Therefore, taking up this course was not a total bummer and I enjoyed my whole three years. I understand if you feel lost and demotivated because you did not get the course of your dreams. You are allowed to feel sad, frustrated but don't let those feelings dwell for too long. Pick yourself back up because if you terima takdir that God place you in this position because of a reason that you yet to understand, you will start to enjoy your journey.

So straight to the point, this course comprises of 6 semesters, if you are from matriculation or foundation of science. Which I think most of you are. If you are from diploma, it will be 2 and a half years for you. I heard that the new batch will be having 7 semesters because your internship will be a a whole semester. You will learn every part of biology. Microbiology, Parasitology, Biophysics, Neurobiology, etc. You will have at least 2 biology subjects per semester and at most 3.

You will also take up business subjects such as Marketing, Management, Operation management, Finance, Risk & insurance, etc. A lot, yep it will confuse you to think 'What am I taking actually? Biology or Business?' Because trust me, I asked myself a lot. But trust me again, you will benefit from it. This is the opportunity for you to see the relevance of many other courses. Also this is a good way to not just feed on Biology. You will see these subjects as an escapism from only learning Biology. At least for me, I loved them all. Some subjects (of business) will take a lot of your time and energy. At times these subjects overshadows biology subjects. 

You will hear your friends complaining 'Kenapa kita kena belajar semua ni? For what?' You will not see the relevance of it at that moment but only after you habis belajar baru you tau, apa yang you belajar tu berguna. These are also the subjects that you can score, to save your own CGPA. So own them, do your best with these subjects, they will save your ass. It is more than possible to get Dean's List every semester. Work smart!

To make this simple, because I can't tell what to expect for every subject there is, I will tell you the easiest to score and the hardest to score (for Biology subjects). Mind you that this is through my own experience and my own humble judgement. 

The easiest to score: Cell Biology & Microbiology. Cell Biology is literally Biology in foundation, but a little deeper. Basic biology. The foundation to many other biology subjects. Microbiology, you have to read, and read, and read some more.

Hardest to score, may fail but always possible to pass: Parasitology. This subject is CRAZY. I drained all of my energy just to sit for this paper. I lost almost all of me just trying to pass. My advice, start revising early. Buat la q-cards ke apa. Budak biology kan? /nerds/ 😝 There are a few other subjects yang susah, but I can still manage aka tak jadi gila trying to understand. I prayed hard supaya I tak fail Parasite sbb I tak nak repeat. I tak nak jadi gila lagi. Alhamdulillah I passed with B-. The lowest I ever gotten for Biology subjects.

Don't worry too much, I believe you will do well. Korang semua bijak kan... You guys are obviously Science stream students since school. Cuma my advice is, be open. Masuk University ni macam macam orang you jumpa. Try adapting and accepting that not everyone is like you. People are different. They were brought up different, they were taught differently. People will be weird, and it will blow your mind that there are people like that, still, in this modern world. Just be nice to people, this is the time for you to be completely flexible. In a way, jangan la rigid sangat. Be accepting. You will understand this nanti :)

If you need assistance or ada any further questions, I am open to receive emails. 

Contact me at attelyaz@gmail.com  

Good luck!

FAQ - Why are you still single?

“Why don’t you have a boyfriend yet?”

I get this questions a lot. Like…… a heck lot. As if it’s really weird to be 22 and single. I have my reasons and I will break it down to you in this entry. Every time people ask me this question I would just brush it off with

“Tak laku la *laughs*” or 

“Tak jumpa yang decent lagi” or just a simple 

“Tak nak kawin”

When the truth is I could say now, I didn’t think I was ready. I have been going solo every since I left school. Quick math; I am now 22 so that means I have been single four to five years. I can’t do math, lets face it. What’s important is that; five years is a long time.

Some asked me if I still can’t move on from my past relationship. To be honest, that was the case for the first two years. I took quite some time to let myself be alone, I don’t want to quickly jump into another relationship just to get over someone. That is just evil of me to do such abuse to other people. I allowed myself to be sad, I gave time to myself to heal, basically. As cliche as that sounds.

However, for the rest of the years, I knew I wasn’t ready for a relationship. I promised myself that my next relationship will be the one I marry. Therefore, at the age of merely 20, I was sure I won’t be meeting ‘the one’ just yet. I directed my focus to something even more important at that time. I needed to get that degree. And for someone like me, I prioritize my studies so much and I wouldn’t let anything get in the way.

In another way to put it, I did not have time for a relationship. Three years of just focusing on studies, I knew I could not add more things to give attention to. Let alone another living soul who’s heart I have to take care of. I don’t think so. I hardly can keep conversation with friends, I knew I couldn’t keep a romantic relationship together. Plus I also suck at it anyway, but that’s another story for another day.

Now that I am done with degree (I have not officially say this but yes!!! I am done!), I am going to another phase of life; real adulthood. I am honestly excited to get on this take, I don’t know what the future has in store for me and I can safely say, I am ready now to get to know people that may or may not blossom into a healthy, wholesome relationship and hopefully I don't swerve anybody because apparently I am really good at that. Oopss. 

Did I just declared myself as available to date? I might just did.

When Life Hits Rock Bottom

Life isn’t always all rainbows and sunshines, sometimes its stormy and brutal. I have been gone again, for about two months. I would say the same thing all over, I was busy with stuff when truthfully, my mind wasn’t in the right state. I know how I said I only write when I'm in a good mood, when I'm all cheery and happy and positive. That’s unrealistic. I feel sad at times and my life gets tough too.

And while I was gone, life was really tough. I know I also said that I am an open book, you can read me right through and I would write about everything…. but there are also things I avoided. Actually, there were a lot of thing that I kept to myself. And today, I am not trying to tell you what happened either, I am just letting you know that sometimes I do feel low and hide behind the wall of positivity I’m now still trying to uphold.

Man, it’s easier to say 'be positive, think positive' when all you think of is how your life is about to crumble right before your eyes. You might think, “Are you dying or what now?” No, I’m not. Thankfully. But there was a time where it felt like I was about to face death. One time things felt so unbearable that it seemed like I was at a dead end. No way out.

But I can tell you one thing, being hopeful that life will turn back around is what kept me sane. I keep a smile through out those times because I was really hopeful that these were not for nothing. God is doing His thing, in His timing. I would not say that life is all good now but it has gotten so much better. I know that He listens to my cries and begs. I kept my faith high all the time -- yes, I kept my positive hat on.

I’m not trying to be a hypocrite. One second I say its hard to stay positive but another I say the complete opposite. But trust me, that was what kept me going. And I also uphold to the belief that you attract what you always think of. So think of only good, you’ll attract good.

I know all of us have gone through hard phases of life, and heck, there will be a lot more to come. If it’s not because of my past experiences, I would not be strong to go through this as I did this time around. Life will always try to get you left and right, but always remember it’s you who has the ultimate control of your life (yea, yea, I know it’s God) but it’s you who control how you feel and how you react to these kind of situations.

While living a realistic life, slide some optimism that life will turn out great and you will be just fine.

Almost Adulting

I started a book last week entitled ‘Almost Adulting’, a book by Arden Rose and I completed that book in two days. I was so happy I get to read again without feeling guilty of neglecting my work just to read. I find it really hard to commit to a book generally, let alone when I have responsibilities. This will not be a book review but I’ll tell you one thing; that book is SO GOOD. I recommend you reading it if you are just like me, in the midst of going into adulthood. Read, and tell me how you think of it.

Like she said in the book, adulting is doing things you hate. Like doing laundry. But despite you hating it, you still have to do it. It is the moment of truth when you realized you have to do shit on your own now. Clothes won't wash itself, and there are (or will be) bills you have to pay. Your parents need you more than you need them aka, they need your constant attention.

I went to a job interview earlier today only to realize that I am really going into another phase of life. And it is crazier to think that…..you, my avid reader have seen me go through all of this. From school, to university, and now… onto career life? Okay to be realistic, I have not secured this job yet but what I’m saying is that I am going into that now. I have given up studying not because I don’t want to, but looking at life right this moment, working would be the best option. That’s adulting for you, having to choose between two that will affect you life. You either turn right or left at this intersection which will lead you to a completely different path.

Adulting is also having to wake up early everyday because I am expected to (being a girl in this household, at least) or I will receive a death stare from my dad for waking up late and having to shake hands with a guy for professional reasons which definitely against your life principle. It all goes back to doing things you have never done before and it is a constant learning process. Adulting lets you see the world in a whole other perspective, could be scary and intimidating in one way, but interesting and fascinating in another.

  

To all almost-adults or full blown-adults, I know you are just like me, trying to figure life and planning out what's next. Constantly thinking ‘am I doing this right?’ in between ‘screw it!’ and ‘please let this be right’ while fingers-crossing. However you are living your almost-adult life, it is most importantly to know that you live just once,make the best out of it. Don’t regret anything and everything happens for a reason. Life is still worth living, nevertheless. 

I'm back?

Salam all, I've been MIA for two months now. A lot of things happened from the last entry leading up to this one. My life has been a complete haywire, my days are just a repetition of waking up, hustle and sleep. Final semester is testing me in every way possible and it is not getting any better. I'm almost done, though. In a month and a half! I can't wait to the day that I can finally say I made it. I pulled through. Just a little bit more. 

Anyway, I want to take this opportunity to say Salam Ramadan to Muslims all around the world and Salam Nuzul Quran which is going to be tomorrow. May this Ramadan be a turning point for you, make you a better person, a better Muslim and may Allah bless every effort you make to be closer to Him. 

Every effort counts :)

Throwback Thursday #1

Don't mind us looking like absolute crap. 18 years old faces!

It is the 14th of March and it is also SPM results day for 2018 SPM candidates. I see people on the internet freaking out and feeling anxious. I absolutely understand those feelings because been there, done that. All the best to those who will be receiving their results today and just know, apa yang Allah dah rezekikan, itulah yang terbaik buat you. 

You can cry, if you are not happy with it. You have feelings and you have the right to cry it out. Reflect on it. If you have given your best and you have left the rest to God, then don't worry. What you got is what He knows is best for you. Trust in His plans. 

Today as my juniors receive their results and start planning their take on life from this day forward, I on the other hand reminisce the day I got mine and how I felt. As per usual, I wrote about it 5 years ago. You can read here. 

Wordless Wednesday #7

10 things I wish I'm good at

I love this 10 things series I got going on. Today I will be writing about 10 things I wish I'm good at. These things are either 1- I know nothing about or 2- I know, but I wish I am better at.

1. Singing

I envy people that could sing beautifully. I wish I have golden voice, even just bercakap pun sedap didengar.

2. Cooking

Hehe as much as I said I hate cooking, I do wish I'm good at it so that I would not hate it as much 😜 But like I said, I do cook, and I can cook but still need a heck lot of improvements.

3. Playing music instruments

I grow up wanting to play piano or violin because I feel like it's just so cool if you know how to play, what more if you are actually good at it. FYI - I don't know how to play any instrument.

4. 3rd language

It would be so cool if I am fluent in another language such as Mandarin, Hindi, Spanish or French. So so cool. 

5. Dancing

I know how to dance. In fact I danced before in school but I wish I could do more than that. I miss dancing.

6. Debate

Debaters are nerds but cool nerds. They talk like machine guns and are very argumentative. I had the chance to be in a debate team but as a researcher back in school. I do research on topics they got for the debate and seeing them in competitions was so....jaw dropping. I could never. I would startle and embarrass myself.

7. Driving
At the age of 22 and not being able to drive yet, sure does feel like I am missing something in life. I hope I will one day be able to drive, have a driver's license and actually be a good driver! Amiin hahah

8. Directions
Ok since I am not driving, my sense of direction is garbage. I tell you what.. I cannot even remember the way to the place that I go weekly or even daily! I still unsure of the way to UiTM from home even though I literally go there everyday. Using the same route! It is disappointing, really.

9. Sports other than netball
I love sports and I love staying active. I used to be an athlete (olahraga) in primary school and I play netball both in primary and secondary. I still play netball now in UiTM too. But I wish I am also good at other sports like badminton, basketball, or even futsal. I have a friend that is good at probably every sport there is. I want to be like her. If I could.

10. Photography
I like taking pictures and I appreciate good pictures. Hence, I wish I am good at taking, and making pictures look good. Plus, it is quite important for blog content 😉

Wordless Wednesday #6

Day #28

What is a mistake people make about you?

Always something to do with my face. Or it is because of my face. People often mistaken me as someone snobbish and unfriendly OR someone garang. 

To be fair, I would admit that I am somewhat "garang" but truthfully I am just strict. I can be playful and all but when it comes to something important I would automatically change into someone strict and stern. It is just my personality. However, I tend to berkerut all the time so it would just show that I am snobbish, unbothered, and can't be touched. And I totally understand why people are so afraid to approach me because if I were to be in your shoe, I would too.

But my face is something that I cannot change. The only way is just by getting to know me. My resting face is like that. Macam nak marah je sentiasa. I berkerut almost all the time and I did not realize that I do. Dyna said I even berkerut in my sleep! Sheesh.

Favourite movie

A heck lot. Some of them are:

We are Family (Hindi)

The Great Gatsby

Confession of a Shopaholic

Flipped

Legally Blonde

Mean Girls

&

Movies with Rebel Wilson in it 

Turned 22 - A Gratitude post

I just turned 22. Twenty-two. It feels surreal and overwhelming, both at the same time. I woke up yesterday feeling so so grateful for the life I have, for I was given another birthday to celebrate. I always feel a little sentimental when my birthday comes mainly because I always reflect on life. 

This birthday especially I am most grateful of. I saw my life turned so  much in the past year and if you have read my entry on 2018, you would know how 2018 went for me. Looking back, those trials made and shaped me into the person I am today. And for that I am so thankful.

I spent my birthday yesterday around my family that I love so much. Kakak and Imaan went back to Subang on Tuesday just in time for my birthday. I missed Imaan so much I was SO happy she was there on my birthday. Seeing her for the first time when they picked me up from work two days ago felt so surreal! We video called almost every night so I usually see her in my telephone screen. Being able to hold and cuddle her felt like a dream. And I'm not exaggerating this at all.

For the past few days I realized how lucky and blessed I am, so this post is me stating the things I am grateful for so the next time I feel like life is grey, I can come back and be reminded that life will turn around and things will get better. 

Gratitude list:

1. I am grateful for my family, the people who will always be there for me, in times of health and wealth as well as in times of bad and debt.

2. I am grateful for the time I still have, to spend with the people I love and care. I still live with my family (I have no reason not to), I still see them everyday. You know how we always forget that as we grow, our parents grow old too. So I appreciate every minute I have with them. I also connect with my friends on daily basis and we always try to spare some time together.

3. I am grateful of all the love. Yesterday I felt so loved and appreciated. That's what birthdays do to you. Birthdays remind you of how many people actually love you and appreciate you even by just spending two minutes of their lives wishing you a happy birthday. Bless you guys!

4. I am grateful for the growth. In any form, in every way. Happy that I am given the chance to experience growth. 

I have always believed that the more you show gratitude, the more God will give you. It is something I have been practicing for so long and it is also a way I found helpful in coping with awful situations. I will try to look at it in the best way possible to make me feel so much better.

10 things you should do in University

Hi guys! The reason why I wanted to make this entry is because I realized how close I am to be done with my bachelor's degree. I will be done in July, InshaAllah! Through out three years and a half (foundation + degree) being a Uni student, there are a lot of things I am glad I did, but there are also things I wish I had done.

So adik-adik out there, yang hampir dapat result SPM and probably pumped to finally be a Uni student doing diploma or foundation (matriks also applied), these are the things that you can (should) do:

1. Make friends

Make loads of them. It is better that you mingle around people that has different race than you. Maybe some of you guys belajar MRSM dulu and only be around Malays, this is a great opportunity to have Chinese or Indian friends. Kalau masuk UiTM then make a lot of Malay & Bumiputera friends. Be reminded that University life is the time where you will be meeting macam macam jenis orang. Some will blow your mind of how good or ridiculous they can be. Be prepared! 😜

2. Be open minded

In Uni, like I previously has mentioned, you will be meeting a lot of people from different backgrounds, lifestyle and principles in life. Learn from them. Pick up the good and leave out the negative. Be open because not everyone is raise the same. This is when you will realize that everyone, literally everyone is different. They are unique and interesting. You will also realize how each person is sent into your life to teach you something be it through a blessing or a lesson. 

3. Get out of your comfort zone

Be crazy, go and do things you never tried. You will more or less be thrown into it anyway. Keep an eye out for great opportunities, whatever it may be. If you have never tried martial arts, go and do it. You never tried sports, try! Who knows you will love it? You wanted to try debate but too shy in school. Now is the time to do it because nobody knows you here. You are fresh and new. Learn, try. The next thing you know, everybody else is also trying.

4. Redeem yourself

If you hate your school life, make memories in University. Love University life because it is fun. Believe me, it is. As much as I value my school life, nothing can compare to my University life. I love it so much that I am actually sad that I have to let go of it soon. Same goes to if you have not been good at school, find a course that you like and kick them all in the butt. Be absolutely good at it. Everyone has the chance to, just choose wisely.

5. Build relationships

Apart from make friends, you should also built friendships. This is a little tricky because like I said, you will meet so many types of human being. Weird ones, backstabbers, annoying ones, fakers, you name it. If you get lucky, you will find people that you can click with (potentially a boyfriend too LOL). These people are worth to keep. I have a group of friends in Uni that has been with me since semester 1. I think I am lucky to be able to meet great circle that helped me so much with my studies. I swear I don't think I can get through five semesters without their help. Same goes to the people I had back in Asasi. They are true people that lifted me and drove me to better every time. A good circle of friends that resulted to friendships can help you a heck lot in getting through Uni life.

6. Focus

You can enjoy life but never be out of focus from what you want to achieve. Stay focused to your aim but in the midst of that, enjoy the ride. There will be days where you feel exhausted, done with life, wanting to quit, but hold on. If you keep your focus, you will get to the destination and all of your hard work will pay off. Don't easily be swayed from your target especially when you are having fun or in love. Use that as your drive to do and be better. I have seen people who did not do well because they had their priorities on the wrong thing and I have also seen both of the partners excel. You determine your own life. You make the choice.

7. Let go of insecurities 

I always believe that entering a new environment altogether means turning over a new leaf. Be a better you. Let go of your doubts and insecurities because it will do you no good. Stop comparing yourself to other people and stop focusing on what you cannot do and start embracing what you can do. I know being around people you barely know can be a little intimidating but always be positive. Stop thinking you are less and start believing that you are enough. In fact, you are better than your yesterday. If you think that your result is not as good as other people and that would make you insecure, stop caring about other people's result. MIND YOUR OWN. If you are insecure how other people's English is so much better than yours, trust me she feels the same with other people. You have to start pushing yourself to be better at it than condemning yourself. You will only make yourself feel bad. 

8. Make constant improvement

Continuation to the last point, try to make constant improvement. Be it your English, you communication, your self confidence, your image, your way of thinking, your Math, literally whatever it is. Constantly improving. A lot of things you can change and it starts with you. I swear by by this quote -- "Believe that you can and you're halfway there." If you believe that you can be better, you are already progressing. You just have to have faith. In yourself.

9. Be good to your teachers (lecturers)

Honestly this is something you should do even in school. Lecturers are more likely to care about your grades if they know you. If you are good with them, they will try to give you better grades. If they have no idea who you are, then they would not care as much. It is always a plus point if you can secure a good relationship with your lecturers. Everything will seem so much easier. They will be easier to be approached for questions or doubts regarding the subject. 

10. Have fun

Stop worrying and just have fun. Break lose. Stop being shy and introverted. Stop being too caught up and serious. You will have stressful days, that's for sure but in the end, you will get through it. There will be a semester that you hate so much and there will be a semester that you wish to never end. Embrace it all. Because soon enough, you will realize that you are at the end of the road. Everything will end in a blink. 

All the best to my sisters and brothers. You will do well InshaAllah ✨

Day #23

What do you miss most about your hometown?

A lot. The loving and refreshing environment I get whenever we are there is something I can never get back. I might be biased but yess I lebih rapat dengan my Mum's side of the family rather than Dad's side because I see them so often. Hometown means Dad's side because Mum's family are here in KL. 

However, even though I may not be as close to my cousins on Dad's side than to my Mum's side, I still have some cousins yang around my age and I rapat. Every time raya or balik kampung for CNY ke, we would hang out and pergi sawah dekat belakang sampai semua kena keteguran and muntah muntah. We would play football (balik kampung kan mesti la main sports lelaki 😂) sampai bola kena kepala, run around dekat belakang rumah kejar anak ayam.. I miss al of that.

Paling rindu is the person I always look forward to meet kalau balik kampung; my arwah nenek. This year, this month, marked the 5th year of her passing. I still miss her everyday of my life. 

Kampung is not the same without you Nek. We've all grown up, berkahwin and ada keluarga. Kampung is not as meriah as it once was. 

Hair colour

I wish it's pink or something but black. Haha

Day #22

What defining moments were in your childhood?

I have a lot of anxiety in me which a lot of people don't know. I realized one of it sparked/ or the first memory of having anxiety was when I was really young. I was probably 4 y/o or 5. I hate the beach. Not the sand nor the amazing view; but the sea. The open water, the waves.

I remember being so young and so scared and paranoid that I might lose my sisters because I see them mandi laut. I don't dare even being near the water. I takut. I saw Dyna mandi laut and I cried. I takut if dia lemas ke apa. I was very paranoid. Sampai sekarang I still have that anxiety everytime I am near water. Swimming pool lain cerita.

If any of you know what kind of a person I am when it comes to studies, you would know that I am an overachiever. I remember one time I dapat number 6 in my class during kinder garden and I don't like it. I kept on saying sorry to my parents and they were like "why are you saying sorry? This is good." And I was like...... "really?" Sampai sekarang I masih ada attitude sama only that I don't say sorry anymore because I know my parents are happy with whatever that I got. Blessed.

Eye colour

Dark brown like the Asian I am.

Day #21

Things that make you happy

Good food

Great company

Being around family

Some relaxing me time.

Shoe size

39

Day #20

Something you're looking forward to

In the near future; I am looking forward to do actual work (internship)

A little further into the future; I am looking forward to a lot of things -- me finishing school, probably work, probably more school (?) idk yet. But basically I am looking forward to what the future holds for me.

First thing you notice in a new person

Hardly anything. If we have a conversation then I can probably tell if I can click with that person or not. That's one thing I can predict.

Day #19

What qualities do you value in a romantic partner

Senang cerita lelaki idaman la kan.... I can write forever LOL. 

1. Some sort of anak mak because if he values and appreciate his Mum, he will know how to appreciate me and respect other women in his life.

2. Good to my Mum. No explanation needed.

3. Has a heart of gold. Kind and compassionate.

4. Ambitious, go getter as well as hard working. 

5. Has the same outlook and principal in life as I do.

6. The most important and also one thing Mama wants in a son in law - boleh jadi Imam/beriman. 

One of my guy friend said that I am choosy but I feel like this is only the bare minimum? 

What am I listening to right now

Right at this moment, I am not listening to anything. But right now generally I listen to a heck lot of Ariana Grande.

Day #18

Your first crush 

A schoolmate back in primary school. 

Do I use sarcasm

Yesss, a lot but in moderation. I hope I never offend anybody though....

Maybe I have.

Day #17

What would you do if money was no object?

Buy properties. 

Favourite food

Tomyam!!

Day #16

Your favourite books

I have not been reading a lot for the past year. I read like.....4/5? but only managed to finish one. But I know for sure I love books by Nadia Khan. She's a genius and so talented. I read all of her books. 

Favourite place 

Home - where my family is.

Day #15

Dear past me

You're not gonna be a medical doctor, I know you really wanted to. No, you did not disappoint anybody. Mum and dad is completely fine with the path you are in now. You are too, very happy with what you are doing. You're doing what you love and you are happy.

You have lost some people that you have never thought of losing. Both family members and friends. However, you definitely have gained a lot of new ones too!

You got hurt along the way but time heals, never worry.

You will be proud of what you have become as a person. You have grown so much, even your future self (me, right now) could not believe it LOL.

Favourite quote

On Islam - So do not be angry or annoyed for anything which happens to you because by the permission of Allah, it is best for you.

On life - Grow a lot. Pray often. Love more.

For women - Here's to strong women. May we know them, may we be them, may we raise them.

- A woman's true beauty is in her heart, her Iman, her Taqwa & her love for the Deen. So few men understand this and fewer women do.

On Love - And I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you.

p/s: I am three days late, sorry!

Day #12

What are your most prized possession?

My wristwatch. I got it from Mum for getting 6As for UPSR. I still have it until now. I loveeeee it so much, kalau one day it stopped working I will CRY. 

What time were I born

10-ish am. or 1030-ish.

Day #11

Are you a city or country person?

I love both but for someone who have been living in the city my whole life, I am defo a city person. 

What do I miss

I miss different things from time to time depending on the situation hahah. But currently I am missing my foundation life, my foundation friends and my niece. 

Day #8

Today's questions are rather simple; we don't have winter here so no favourite recipes and I am straight. However today I want to throwback to my day 8 entry last year! My version of Thank U, next.

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Day #7

What personal achievement are you most proud of?

First of all, I don't want this post to come out as bragging because I am not even trying to. This is only my personal achievement that probably seem nothing for you guys. I am an overachiever. Let's just put that out straight. I hate to settle for less and be comfortable with what I achieved. I always want more. Which I know, I can do so much more.

However, my SPM result that were 7As (only) is honestly be the achievement I am most proud of. Why? 2014 was a rough year, I would say. We moved house because of financial reasons, we were broke, technically. My parents were jobless for a good few months in 2014. Not only my parents had to feed four of us, we also had my cousin with us which was also jobless at that time.

It was already amazing how we could survive at that time but to relate that to my story was, we had no money to send me to tuition classes. My mum wanted to send me though, but I refused because I know we don't have money. I told her I can do it; I basically challenged myself that. To see how would I do without all of the extra things.

With the emotional breakdowns, and all of that shebang, I pulled through and got myself that 7As that I am SO freakin proud of. I was over the moon, I still am. Even though for some, 7As are just average. I am happy and I proved myself that I am capable if I believe I can.

My best friend

My mum, my sisters, and my girly whirlies. Soon, Imaan will join the bandwagon! 

Day #6

What is your relationship like with your siblings.

We are closer than ever. Gaduh, obviously ada but we all mmg ngam. Growing up, the only time yang susah nak rapat is because of age gap. Me and my eldest are five years apart. We do have a huge age gap yang dia dah sekolah menengah, I still in primary school and when I only started high school, dia dah habis sekolah. So it was rather hard to have a good connection. 

But bila I dah form 3 mcm tu, we all got so so much closer to each other and up until now. We are unbreakable (gituuuuwwww). We have differences but we understand that we may never be identical in how we see life, in how we handle things, or even in how we think. We accept the differences and make the best out of it.

4 turns off

1. Rough guys. I hate guys yang cakap mcm nak gaduh. I like gentle guys.

2. Guy who smokes. I don't hate them, I can be friends with them no problem but I do not necessarily find them attractive. 

3. Guys who do not take life seriously. Self explanatory. You should know what you need to do at the certain age and time. 

4. Rude guys. In whatever situation and aspect. 

p/s: Not that my opinion matters, you do you but this is just a question that ask on my opinion. I hope I tak offend anybody with my answer.

pp/s: I tak suka sweet talker jugak okbye

Day #5

What object tells the story of your life?

- A pen; symbolizes my love for writing. I can write forever.

- Spectacles; I have been a specky all my life (or so I feel like)

- Books on the bookshelves; I have yet to let go my textbooks and notes from foundation years even though I don't need them anymore. I sayang my books and to me, education is everything. I want to keep hold on those books.

- A memory box; I keep a memory box that holds everything -- from birthday cards, get well soon card, love letters, family pictures, photos from my school days and a lot more small things that are sentimental to me. All of that tell the story of me growing up.

4 turns on

I will take this question as four things guys do that attracts me. So,

1. The way he treats his Mom and my Mom. I am mummy's girl so I want a guy that understands how close and manja I can be with Mama. He would, if he is also one. This is also mean that he is a family guy. 

2. Decent. In all aspect. In his speak, his dressing, the way he thinks and his akhlaq. 

3. Responsible. I suka guys yang take responsibility over whether his work, or family or just things on his plate. Orang yang responsible has my respect. 

4. Funny yang tak try hard. 

Day #4

How do you normally spend your weekends?

I always say that weekends are strictly for family. I rarely go out with friends on weekends because 1) I am just lazy. I feel like weekends are for home activities be it cleaning or just being lazy in your pyjamas all day. 2) I spend my Saturdays at Wangsa Maju which is my 'kampung'. Arwah Wan used to live there with my Aunt but now since she passed away my Aunt lives alone. So every Saturday we would all gather at that house. I feel like I have said this before. Sundays are usually spent at home doing laundry. Also, my parents usually get a heck lot of wedding invitations so I constantly (i mean it) attend weddings on weekends.

3 things I love

- Jewelries

- Wrist watch

- Notebooks, planner. I am a sucker for that.

Day #3

Your favourite childhood vacation

There are not many vacations that I can still remember vividly. I only remember events, or parts of them. My family on Mum's side go on holiday/getaway twice a year. One in the middle of the year and another would be at the end of the year. We celebrate birthdays of  all the kids, parents as well as exchanging gifts between families. To be honest all of our vacations had been the best. I always have the best times whenever I am around my big, big family. However, I would probably choose that one vacation we had in Langkawi yearssss ago; I think it was in 2007. 

Not only because it was my first time taking a flight, it was also the last vacation we had with dearest grandmother whom I call Wan. The vacation was almost cancelled because of her health condition but she insisted on going for the sake of her grandchildren yang dah so excited to go. Our apartment was on the second floor and she was on wheelchair. No elevator available so we (the Moms and the Dads) had to carry her in the wheelchair up the stairs to get home and down if we wanted to go out.

Despite all that, it was a nice memorable trip that I will keep with me forever. The next year, on 8/8/08, Wan passed away. 

3 Fears

- Height. I gayat.

- Losing my family members.

- Tikus.

Day #2

What was you first driving experience like?

I never tried driving, ever. 

Age

I will be 22 by the end of this month. 

Day #1

A lesson you have learned from you granpa

I never had the chance to meet both of my grandfathers, unfortunately. I heard stories about them. Mum lost her father when she was in University. Probably when she was 20. Even Dad didn't get the chance to meet him. Dad however lost his in 1998. I was about a year old but I obviously did not remember a thing. 

Name

Full name is Attelya Zurin binti Abdul Hamid. As in IC. I alwayssss drop 'binti' every time I write down my name. My family and my friends call me Tya. I only prefer people who are close to me to use that nickname on me or else I prefer you calling me Attelya. Formal, and appropriate. 

Questions & tags

Just like last year where I did February tag, I will do the same this year but the tags/questions I got are pretty simple and straightforward. Therefore, I will be combining two sets of question. One will end earlier than the other but that's fine. I will start on February 1st, it's my favourite month, that's why. Hahah

My Monday

My first, actual entry of 2019! (The first one was Wordless Wednesday but that doesn't count). HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS! It's the last week of January, phewww! Unlike last year, January this time around is actually pretty dang fast. I finished my finals on the 13th and started internship on the 22nd. I had exactly a week break before internship starts. 

Internship so far...... is okay. Nothing much to do, a lot of reading and researching on my own instead of doing things. It's fine with me but I felt like studying instead of working. At least not yet because I know in the near future I will have things and actual work to do. However, I do hope that this will be a golden experience for me.

Aahh, kerja macam ni made me miss working at TTP a heck lotttt! If you are an OG reader, you would know where I worked right after SPM as well as foundation studies. Gahhh, I miss the people and the job itself. It was tiring but I had a ton of fun with all of the co-workers. I miss my Boss who were very patient, caring and kind to me. I met him a lot at his workplace when I was in Kajang but since I moved here, I lost the chance to meet him during semester break. 

I cannot believe I actually enjoyed working like that more than what I do right now. I was hoping that the environment here would be similar if not the same. But nope, everything is completely far except for the working space is a lot more comfortable and I just sit all day versus standing for long 9 hours. But lets be real, no two place is the same and no two experience is identical. I am sure I eventually will appreciate the experience and knowledge I will be picking up here.

Happy working to my classmates, all the best! I will see you guy in one a half month. Happy Monday to the rest of you 😜

p/s: It's Tuesday when this entry went up!

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